The Certainty of Pilates

I just attended a weekend of continuing education. It had been awhile, due to my personal circumstances, and a part of me feared I wouldn't be able to keep up with the workshops. These past two years have been some of the worst of my life. Divorce, the stress of divorce and trial, selling a house, moving twice, PTSD, the stress of finding enough work as a new breadwinner in a society that isn't kind to newly single women of a certain age, etc.

I showed up (that's already a win) and even though I knew it would be hard (it was) and I bared my many flaws to some of the best teachers in the business, I knew that I would be able to get through it. Because there is a certainty of Pilates that has been consistent in my journey with it. I knew that, even though I am not even close to my best athletic self, I have the physical and mental tenacity to get through a weekend of intense workshops because I have done the work. I have integrated the Pilates method into my being, since the mid-90's. To people seeing me move, even to the fabulous teachers, I may not look strong, but the strength is there. I feel it and I know it.

And that is why I have survived these past two years. I have the Pilates mindset in my everyday life. Even on my weakest days, I know I will survive. I know I can be strong. And I am. That's the certainty of Pilates.